Death
One day, two deaths! Life is a bitch even when it is leaving you. I know death is an inevitible fact but why does it have to be such a torture on us and everyone around? Why can’t we leave this world peacefully and in a manner more acceptable to those around us?
The Dynamics of Relationships
I read this post on a guys view on love and relationship and I disagreed with it enough to actually write a post on it myself. This post might seem like a reply to the other one so you might want to read his point of view as well.
Love to me is not something I have actually looked for. I have always felt enough affection from my family and I don’t think I have ever looked to my friends or my girlfriend (when I had one) as an alternate source for love. All three of them fall into different categories and are as important as the next. Its not that lack of one could be fulfilled with excess of the other.
When you are in a relationship with somebody it is true that over a period of time you end up being dependent on them or rely on them for different things which are a part of your personal life but that is not all there is to it. Relationship on the whole brings a lot of emotional and intellectual change to your life. I for one believe that if you feel connected to someone being with them brings a positive change to your life. You end up doing things you normally might not have. Then again that is just me but a relationship for me is something where I get to exploit my potential more than usual. It works as what you can call a motivation factor for me.
When you start out with a fresh relationship you don’t actually think about the practicality of the entire thing in totality. You are in a state of euphoria where everything seems perfect to you but as time goes on things get more real and cracks begin to appear. Either of two things can happen here, you let time fizzle things out or you try and fix them. I won’t go into the details of how either of this could and would work out but I will end it all by saying that if you feel that there is a chance to make an existing relationship work, no matter how minute it might be, you should work your differences through cause its not everyday you find people you can mentally and emotionally connect to.
Anguish
Do you think I like doing that? I know you hate it, hell anyone would hate it but before you blame me have you stopped a second to consider how I feel about it? Its pretty clear to me that its unacceptable but why was I put in such a situation to begin with. I don’t know what is it with me and circumstances where I don’t have control over myself. I hate it when I lose it, I hate it when my emotions are out there flaunting like a bloody whore. I wish I could muster a higher level of control but the fact of the matter is that right now I don’t have it and that infuriates me even more. I have no clue as to what lead me to this but that is not a bloody excuse for what I am!
The thing which gets to me the most is that at the end of the day I don’t have anyone else to blame but me, cause in this life every man is own its own. I am responsible for my actions and regardless of the fact that how I got there it is me who will be judged by it in the end.
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Mind Storm
When I started blogging in the January 2006 I was in a very pessimistic, depressive and compared to today, different state of mind. But a year - even when it is gone in a snap - is quite a long time and a lot can change it. 2006, for me has been quite an eventful year.
As your life grows older you keep coming across a lot of things. Most of them maybe regular day to day events but there are a few things which leave an impression on you. These things collectively make you grow as an individual, compose or affect your personality and at the end of the day make you whole.
2006 for me has been the year where I came across quite a few irregular events which varied my emotions from utter depression and complete confusion to sheer excitement and absolute bliss. It was a year in which I personally think I went through a lot and which had a profound affect on the person I am today.
Like I said before when I started this blog in January 2006 I was in a completely different state of mind. That is what was partially responsible for the title “Born Under a Bad Sign”. But today as I sit down and analyze the last year and compare myself as the person today and the person a year back that title doesn’t fit in, that is not how I would like to define either myself or my thought process.
So I am starting the new year with a fresh frame of mind, with a fresh title which I believe is more in line with the way I think, what I would like to do, what I would like to be and on the whole is a better reflection of who I am. I am starting blogging in the new year under the title “Mind Storm”.
